Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Quarter-Life Crisis

i do realise i like grabbing stuff from ppl.. lols :D

The story goes.....

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and they aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere but that they are as confused as you.

You look at what you're studying...and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try to cling onto the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken..
and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you

Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

Getting wasted & acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about the future, money, loans and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that EVERYONE reading this relates to it.

We are all in our best & our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

So share this with other twenty-ish friends... Maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion :)

p/s : i think its from aqila. how did ppl write such beautiful things and plainly using words.

it hits me.. how bout you???

Thursday, September 10, 2009

one simple question

went dinner with my mum
and as this little girl approaches,
she asked : aunty, you wanna try our "see ko thing" ??? (a dessert with longans, sweet potatoes, beans n colourful jellies)

mum wasnt around, but gosh. it makes me wonder? am i that old?
time flies:(

kay, back to work... i hate doing assignments!!!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

everybody writes on 999

so i must take part too!!! hehehehe...

isit a special day? not to me! 2 tests n 1 rejected literature review!!!!!

wat u think???

after an exhausting day... new assignments! n due on friday!!!!gila... :(

no complaints... chill chill chill

ommmmm..... ooommmmm.... ommmmm

supposingly it should make me feel better
but....... judy memang terkenal for her "phekchek-ness"

Tuesday, September 8, 2009


assignments & tests just keep on rolling non-stop!!!!
why why why?????

pretty run out of hand this month *phew

thanks to myself
for being so pandai for self-declaring-holiday for 3 days!
there u go, terima akibatnya..... sigh

went dinner with my coursemates the other day at teluk kumbar! super expensive
cekik darah betul!!!

burnt a big, large, huge, humongous hole in my pocket!!!
kena ikat-perut.. hahaha u think i can??